Yikes!!!

Hola!!

So, today I did a lot of thinking. I was thinking mostly on how I remember those days where I would say I was going on a diet, and then maybe 3-4 days later I would have these uncontrolable cravings. Something would go inside my head, take over the controlls and say "Alright diet over losers! Its time for some chips and pizza!" Then without thinking about it, I reached for that cheesy pizza, or pop those lindor chocolate balls with the creamy filling inside my mouth. After eating until I was full. Of course I felt guitly lol. Then I would say "Okay, I'll start tomorrow, fresh start! Ill do it! :)" But no...That doesn't work. Next thing you know it, everyday will be just a free pass and you'll be the same size or bigger. So what does work? I'm supposed to have an answer for that, but unfortunatly I don't. I have ideas, but not a for sure answer. I think you have to really want to lose your desired weight, you really have to strive for it. Maybe it was just not the right time, but when is? As you go on, you learn right? I'm not saying I have all the answers, but I do have some ideas. It's all in your head.

I can't wait to be able to second guess me going to a club with some friends, or always ask my boyfreind "Am I that size?" Its ridiculous! I'm clearly not happy! And no one is going to come into my body and change that for me, its all on me to change! It's so much easier just to sit there with a yummy bag of chips and say "Okay, tomorrow Ill start", but no, in reality It's not!

Anyways! Tomorrow, I will squeeze into some clothes that may or may not look too flattering on me because I am going to the club! I am going to drink alot, get plastered and probably end up eating Mcdonalds! Yummm hehehe. But then, when I wake up New Years Day, I will stop all of that, and start my LIFE STYLE CHANGE. I am going to change for ME. And you know what? It is going to be something that I will accomplish! Im so excited! =)

Night guys! xxx