Just the beginning

Hi. My name is Jessiy. I spell my name wrong on purpose so that when people look at my name, they may think that I'm just a little bit more interesting. lol. I think Jessiy looks better then Jesse. Anyways, you and I are going to Watch Me Shrink. 2010 will be the best year, it may be hard, but it will be the best year. Wanna know why? Because I am going to lose ALOT of weight. Hells yes. ALOT! See I used to be thin, i used to wear bikini's and tank tops, skirts and shorts, but now, its more sweaters, and leggings. Clothes that cover me because I am self consious. I gained weight because I had lost myself in food. lol Doesn't that sound so fat? I stopped being active and fun, and started because lazy and depressed. Now, I want to be me again. Not just lose weight, but to be happy again. More adventurous and confident!

I know its going to be hard because I have a hard time like actually staying commited to something I've started. Its brings me down everytime. But hopefully this blog will keep me going! I love to write, but I love to talk even more, but my boyfriend probably won't enjoy listening to everything I've eaten, or how many minutes I've worked out that day lol. I really want to do this because I feel heavy. I don't think ever in my life I walked away from a camara while someone was taking a picture, now I cover my face with my hands and yell "NOOO" "MOM!! SERIOUSLY?!?!?" I never did that before. I would be like "Picture"? "HELLS YESSSSS MOFO!" *pose* lol. Thats me! Well was....

Anyways, this is how its going to happen, if it changes, thats okay! Chemy boy challenge is approximently the second weekend of July, that is 6 months. I want to see a HUGE difference in my body in July for the challenge. And then somewhere in August we (family) are going to the cottage, and i want to see a big difference there to. I want to be able to wear a bikini, tank tops, and not be self consious, thats summer was horrible. All I will say is that I felt like crying everyday because I couldn't wear a tank top without the word "fat" screaming at me in the back of my head everyday. lol. Anyways. This is how I AM going to do it!!!! So, I joined Goodlife (sorry mom) lol, but I didnt sign a one year contract, I pay month by month. And yes I will be able to afford it because I am getting that big check from the Apt, and then on top of that I am working at Le Bay. (That's towards my mom to save time telling her later lmao)! So I go to the gym, which I acually enjoy doing, and no junk food! Only 2 times a month I can, just so I will keep sain. :) I will take the stairs instead of the elevator, do little things like that. I've looked so COUNTLESS of things for nutrition and weightloss. I know what to do, I just have to do it and I will :)

BUTTTTT! I have till New Years Day to eat WHATEVER, WHENEVER I want! Which is why I just ordered a yummy pizza from Gabriels! :) And I am getting PLASTERED on New years eve! Oh and always I will not drink until Chemy Boy Challege. You just can not refuse a drink from hard playing boys! :p And I do not need those empty calories while losing weight!

I have 243 days and blogs until the end of August and I will become a NEW TRANSFORMED GIRLLL!!!! I am so excited to do this! And I WILL DO THIS. :) And I know my family will support me and not stick pizza in the face. I will take a picture of myself, with my clothes on don't worry lol! You'd all run off screaming if I took one without any clothes hahaha. But yeah, i will but one up on New Years Day! :) And then it will begin! But until then I will eat WHATEVER I want and get sick from it! lol! I will post tomorrow to tell ya everything I ate! :) lol, Goodnight! Pizza timee babieeee!